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hey! i'm dhes, 18 hmm.. so i'm a nursing stud at a college in mkati
i don't seek attention or praises
if you don't lyk what you see or read then leave my page;p
hmm.. basically i'm just your streotype lady.., school,house,church that's mY LYF, quite boring for some but i'm having fun with my routine hihi
i love to laugh, live and love.., i'm not a pessimist., yeah have so much hope in me hihi which is proven to be helpful a lot of times;p
i'm at point of re-routing my life and deciding where i want to go what do i want to achieve
i'm an activist searching for that noble thing to fight for..
i enjoy the complexity of my simple LYF
sTay in lUrve
HER LURFES ♥
i love...me, myself and I haha;p
aya weE my lovely layout is because of her help..mwuah..;p
that special someone who is about to come
blogging my latest addiction
where is mR.ryt? ♥
June 2008
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how could you find something if your not searching..
how could you get hurt if your too afraid too try?..
but if your already at bliss will you still crave for that feeling which you know is very uncertain?;p
i'm a certified NBSB, i'm not romantic., i'm not a fan of destiny and all that stuffs.., but one thing i know.., i know what the word COMMITMENT means that is why i try to move away from that for now because that is no joke..;p
i have a life to live and a career to fulfill.., i don't need no hero, i prefer a companion who could walk me to him and enjoy the journey with me..;p
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Sunday, June 29, 2008 ♥
risk for bipolar attitude as related to suppressed emotions..?! *soree i'm a nursing freak?!*
... yeap i myt be at risk of bipolar disorder..., wheew i'm about to drown with this extreme emotions.., i was happy then mad.., missing some people and now really scared..,. but i'm trying to be fine.., trying to be ok.., ignoring the pain and fears that kept runnin into my head.., i'm so using intellectualization as a defense mechanism that is my favorite.., so now what do i really feel.., i got confused with my own haPpy..., smiling act.., can't dig within me.. now i just feel tired.., can i sleep for a year?! and just say adeu with all this stressors?! i am withering.., catch me.., make me feel alive.. and give me just a glimpse of happiness..,
..suddenly my world becomes gloomy..;c
my heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥
Friday, June 27, 2008 ♥
june 26: hmm.. passSing... to failure..eRRR..
..*this day is eRr.. not that gud huhu.. i had 3 quizes huhu.., my brain cells were over used?! kiddn.. i hate my very lax attitude dat day nd d nyt before..rAaarr.. ny grades range from mediocre to flunk..;c *nxt week i swear it will be diff.., goal: one mistake or perfcet!! haha i'm free to dream ayt?!!*
.. and what's worst than my awful quizes is my oOh so boring prof in teaching strat..boohoo.. well i can sense that he is smart but OMG he lacks confidence he couldn't finish a phrase without saying.. "aAh... aAh.., parang..,basically..sO.." grr.. am i being mean? but really it's distracting.., i'm trying to absorb his lecture because it's intresting however listening to him makes me hate the subject.. grr.. last thurs.., a battle in XOX saved me from sleeping in his class*haha so know you know how childish i am.., at least i didn't sleep* so today i really tried to listen but there are a lot of distraction in class.. as in a LOT.. i became the target of tim,pia nd rach's attention..*see m much more ntresting than my prof* hehe as i try to listen attentively?1 *they* keep on doing their distracting tactics at my back hehe.. but it was fun.., and they were successful in distracting me hooho..p laf3p..*soRry sir i tried my hardest to listen to you.., hehe but i think i learnd some stuffs haha lyk B.F. skinner theory and others..;p
June 27; huh? pictorial.. and the big "C"
...yeah pictorial?! well it's more of a chaotic thingy than a pictorial hehe,,;p it's for R capping ceremony but on my personal opinion it looks like a picture on our first communion..hmm..
the big "C" no it's not cancer hehe it's eRr.. about french fries his my big "c" for now.., k8 a.k.a. "mie" has tons of outrageous thoughts for today hehe she calls me "gf" and 3sh a.k.a. "ate kc" "bf" hehe it has a very funny meaning in which i cannot tell..*but your free to guess what those words mean* and before i forgot carmz was asking who d big "c" was hehe but i'm not yet ready wee..*arte* yei!! 2m is saturday!! my fave day haha..;p
mybe i'm in heart..;p
Labels: stuDYING..
my heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥
Wednesday, June 25, 2008 ♥
*breath*.., whew.., i am of no hold of tyM..
duty...duty.. , today is just a normal routine on mY duty days.., woke up at aroubd 3am.., went to school.., arrived at bangkal lying-in.., we didn't have any patietnt for today so as always our last resort to be free from boredom is to goof around and giggle.., hihi..;p flo and i had a *form a as many words within a minute tournament* with a free sundae as a catch to the person who will win it is race to five game.., whew it was a close fight and we were successful on our goal to be free from boredom because we were unable to finish our fight because we didn't notice that it was already time to leave yipEe..;p the score was 4-4 hehe it is a hanging battle.., to be continued next duty hoho..;p
...so i got home around 3.., and as soon as i stepped on our house i headed to my room and slept until 5.. sarap..;p hmm.. 5-8 chat.., *glam was so cheezy bout allen..* but i'm glad to see her haPPy.. wee super bgay keo 2geder..;p heart2...
..my chat with my lil sis.., somehow made me realize that in two years time i'll be done with BSN*keeping my fingers crossed* and i'll be 20 by that time.., whew.., me? 20? hehe.. bit scaree but xciting,,;p this also means gudbye to my gray uniform nd black stockings.., no more snacks at cafe mauro, byebye with sleepover due to case studies, huhu can't bare with those things yet ehe better to enjoy and make the most of my last two years at RTRMS-MMC ayt?..,
hhmm... in two years tym..i'll be the cutest 20 years old nyahah..;p
my heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥
Tuesday, June 24, 2008 ♥
JUNE 23,2008:NO DUTY TODAy..huhu..sad;c
Frank is gone!!! yeAh!! too bad duty was cancelled when in fact there is no stOrm today.. gRR... today is a non-productive day or so i thought nyahaha.. i've spent half of the at bed, i was close to having bed sore hihi due to over lying on the bed.., and having calluses and blame that to UNLITXTING haha..;p luckily 2870 txt me and save my thumb from having calluses hoho.. so i can't txt and i'm tired of sleeping and eating in between *if i'll continue this routine for a week.., my CHN uniform wouldn't fit me anymore hekhek..* cHattN is the next good thing to do!! and AYA is my savior from my ultimate boring day hehe she gave me something exciting to do wEE.. the result of that is my lovely layout hihi.. she gave me a layout tutorial *tnx aya.., luRve you bigTYm..;p* she taught me simple stuffs like changing the skin of my blogsite.., putiing pictures and everything.., and i discoverd something whew i am a novice with all this stuffs hihi.., but it was fun learning ayt? so where done with our mission: make my blogsite decent... hihi i guess it was a success because i receive favorable comments!! yipee!!
my heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥
Sunday, June 22, 2008 ♥
* no classes for 2m in all levels*
wee!! break from duty!! well i'm quite happy coz dat means another rest day for us.., but somehow., i'll miss an opportunity to witness another miracle of lyf..;p but maybe i'll took advantage on the tym to sleep more..;p
*the miracle*
yeah definitely this year or term is a turning point, being assigned on the maternity clinic and being able to see the wonders of a woman body and as that little human being comes out to the world.., whew., it gives a different high..,;p and when you here his first cry, which signifies that he is alive.., no matter how exhausting and a bit terrifying it is to handle a newborn because he seems to be so fragile *plus the fact it is my first time to do that* once you carry and took hold of him., they give a different feeling of joy and calmness..;p
*and to mama*
being able to witness how wonderful and equally difiicult it is to give birth.., i give a 
million thanks to my mom., it's no joke to carry a child in your womb and at the time of labor and delivery the woman is at great risk.., my mom has a choice to give me life or took it, my mom told me that before she got pregnant with me, she and my papa was planning to take a greater oppurtunity but having a child will forfeit them to have that, and during that time she found out that she was pregnant to cut the story short.., i have lived the past 18 years of my life because my mom choose to give me the gift of life instead of the greener pasteur they could have..;p i'm not a perfect daughter, but i know my mom has big heart which is willing to forgive and understand.., i may not be able to say this as often as i should but i LOVE my mom big TYM!! i wouldn't choose any other person to be my mom..;p
million thanks to my mom., it's no joke to carry a child in your womb and at the time of labor and delivery the woman is at great risk.., my mom has a choice to give me life or took it, my mom told me that before she got pregnant with me, she and my papa was planning to take a greater oppurtunity but having a child will forfeit them to have that, and during that time she found out that she was pregnant to cut the story short.., i have lived the past 18 years of my life because my mom choose to give me the gift of life instead of the greener pasteur they could have..;p i'm not a perfect daughter, but i know my mom has big heart which is willing to forgive and understand.., i may not be able to say this as often as i should but i LOVE my mom big TYM!! i wouldn't choose any other person to be my mom..;pmy heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥
Saturday, June 21, 2008 ♥
*the rain is pouring heavily...*
i love the weather today.., i love it when it rains.., it is as if the rain is cleansing my thoughts and giving me the gift of feeling calm and at peace.. and today the rain for me is not just a weather that i love but an affirmation from my creator.., it's his gentle into my weary heart..
...to give you a hint on why do i feel like this let me share what happened to me last nyt.. i got home at around nine, because i've attended an org acquitance party at my college that was a blast and the experience was very refreshng and uplifting., the theme of the party was "to know you more" (referring to our saviour and God). So after that party i was so inlove again with my creator my love tank was refilled (and lucky for me coz now i realized it was really God's plan for me to attend that night because he was preparing my heart from the hurt i was about to endure)
..so i am at our house already i didn,t ate dinner ma nad pa was talking about "something" and that "someone" actually i'm immuned with that topic or i thought i was.., that "topic" really pains me..hmm.. so i end up in my room talking and letting my heart out to my creator.., i am hurting so bad.., but i could hear the echo in my head of what the pastor had said in the talk during the acquitance "i know you have worries and doudts.., but trust in God for HE will never forsake YOU" and that night i asked to embrace me.., and let me feel his presence.... there i was sitting at corner of my bed praying and i could feel goosebumps all over my body.., and there then i feel that my saviour is with me as i grieve..
"for God so love the world that he gave his only son, so that whoever believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.."
my heart is wondering around waiting for mr right ♥